MEANINGFUL LIFE

 You don't get the attention or respect you deserve. You find no purpose of contribution. Oppression is one thing that contributes in this. When you don't fit in you can't find a reason to live. We need a reason in anything otherwise we can't accept functioning without a purpose. Belief is what saves us. Believing that there is a higher purpose is the last 1% of the battery that keeps us alive or rather want to be alive. 
You talk they aren't inclined. You shout you lose. You are the bad guy. You speak to them they don't pay attention. Then, you name the issue as they are your soft spot and you are willing to make it up with them. You expose it and define it !!! what then? You are a burnt card! 
What do you do when you find no place? You either wipe about it or turn into a lone wolf.

It's always ugly if you were an empath. Yourself is your enemy. You are insecure of being yourself .. accepting yourself .. and hence people do never accept an insecure person. 
I myself try to avoid people. Certain people to be honest. But when people who I like or don't like avoid me it hurts. That was one thing. The other thing is a real problem that I can't solve which is double faced. Disrespect from one side and avoidance from the other side. If people tried to pull my leg I become tense and rigid. At the same time I can't push them away. I believe I don't share enough energy to deter them from being or behaving unproperly. Number two is the avoidance of people to me by all means and in all aspects of interactions.  

In February the 10th he sits down on one of the benches on the metro platform.

He does not look up except for few times. He decided to put down some thoughts on the Google blogger. 

Hey! This is too much of detail and it's becoming boring!! Get to the point please.