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انا بكتب بس لما احس ان حالتي مزريه في الوقت دا بتبلع ريقك بالعافيه وريقك بينشف اصلا. الوقت دا بتموت كل معاني الحياة وبتشوف قدامك سواد بس. اياً كان اللي بتعيشه فأنت متفرقش عن باقي الناس في الحاجه. هنفضل عايشين الحياة دي مش عارفين هي فيها سعاده ولا لا؟ فيها نجاح طيب؟ طب ممكن فيها حزن بس؟ خيانه ووساخه بس!!! هنفضل كلنا غلابه مش عارفين الحقيقه. واحد مرح هييجي يقولك ويغنيلك (الحياة حلوه) واحد تاني هيقولك الحياة بنت وسخه الحقيقه هي ان محدش هيعرف حاجه - محدش هيفهم حاجه وهنفضل كدا للابد ليوم القيامة لو انت مبسوط دلوقتي فدي حاجه حلوه  لو انت مش مبسوط دلوقتي فدي حاجه حلوه برضه كلنا مساكين وغلابه وبنحس اننا ملوك الكون احياناً لان بعض كيمياء الجسم بتكون مظبوطه وبتعيش عيشه فل لبعض الوقت ولكن واحد زيي محابس الكيمياء فجسمي تقريبا بتسرب فالحزاين عندي مستواها اعلي من الناس المظأططه لو انت صحبي او قريبي او تعرفني فأنت اما محظوظ لو بتقدر الأختلاف او مش محظوظ لو انت دماغك مبتجيبش لأخر الشارع احسن درس اتعلمته في حياتي هو انك تعرف تتكلم كويس  تتكلم يدخل معاها الكلام الجسدي مش بس الصوت لما تعرف تتكلم...

 بعد مازرت مصر اكتشفت اني فوتت حاجه مهمه جدا. هي اني اعد مع بابا وماما واتكلم معاهم بدون حساب مواعيد او بص في الساعه ونعد نقرأ قرآن ونتكلم ونضحك، وطبعا بابا مش هشبع منه ولا يشبع مني زي ماكان دايما زمان بييجي بعد مايكون استحما وييجي ينام وياخدني فحضنه وانا عيل صغير ويعد يكلمني ويحكيلي حواديت، فاكر يا بابا كنت بتعد تسرح دقنك وشعرك بعد الحموم وانت مبلول وبتبقي لسه بتنشف رجلك وتيجي الاوضه والدنيا بليل والنور مقفول ونستعد ننام وننام جنب بعض ايام الشقه اللي تحت بتاعت عمتو هدى اكتشفت ان اقيم شئ في الحياة بين الناس هي العلاقه الناجحه والتواصل اللغوي الفعال. بالنسبالي هو اني اقعد واتكلم مع حد بالذات بحبه وقريب مني وكمان والدي بابايا شخصيا فدا شئ لا يقدر بثمن. طبعا عملت كدا كتير ولكن مش كفايه. يارب اكررها الزياره واعمل كدا واقوم مع بابا بدري من الصبح واشوف هيعمل ايه ورجلي علي رجله علي طول لاني بجد وبصدق مش راضي عن اسلوبي ابدا السفريه اللي فاتت.  بالنسبالي الحديث مع شخص بحبه في حوار مهم ومفيد وطويل دا شي عندي بالدنيا بحس اني قاعد اخد جرعه افيون او كوكايين وبتكيف جدااا بحاجه زي دي… عذرا ي...

Many things I can’t still live without. And seems more important for me so all these things are: News information Reading and writing learning English Russian Professional shots Natural photos Delicious food Street workout gymnastics Trampoline fliping nudes Join imo rooms YouTube vlogs famous ruling watching movies Read memes Listening music Play application games

So let me tell you a bit of a story of a boy named  He   He slowly walked unaware of the surroundings except for the sun rays at the last hour of the day on May the 19th. He stepped on the cold grass. He actually couldn't feel it but the air had a mild sting of cold so that he could tell that the grass is cold. He slowly watched the breathtaking scene of the sunrays caressing the grass the perfectly cut wood the tress the houses.  He pictured the hins and rooster randomly walking slowly and barely crying.  He looks at the mirror and he sees a man. A child looking at a man. He even feels scared of himself. He respects himself because he looks like a grown up man but that respects comes from the inner child that lives within his soul. He respects himself so much and tells himself that he can own everything if he opened his mouth. But the one who talks is the child. He is trapped in between his needs and his desires and his necessities to carry his family into a safer s...

Let me tell you a kind of story. This reflects my understanding of how I came to be labelled as bipolar — a slightly more polite way of saying I am insane or crazy or mad. It’s about thinking differently and why that can be threatening to others. When we start to think that other people think differently from the way we do, it is worrisome. Why? Because our ability to cooperate with others depends on our ability to trust others. To trust others, we have to believe we can predict their behavior accurately. To predict behavior accurately, we have to believe we understand the way they think. If you believe you think differently from others, and worse, if you don’t think you can either pretend to think the way others do or learn to think the way you think others do, then you can begin to worry that others will figure this out and will not want you around, any more. This tends to create stress, which makes you worry even more about what might happen to you, which eventually can cause you to...

 In 19th of April 2019 I was working with my dad when I felt a mild cramp in my hand muscles.  I panicked and thought that I had masculer dystrohy. My three cousins do have it. It's probably carried in my family genes.  I remember that I lived a very hard time since then believing that I am a crippled man by the coming few years. It was horrible. I was practicing sports during that time around 5 times a week.  I couldn't imagine myself losing my abilities and strength.  Days passed by and I was at home with my homemate. He was introvert and big on deep thinking.  He said I believe you are INTJ just like me; "I am an INTJ" I said OK whatever it is! I didn't much care. Days passed by and I started to get into a series of hardships. Lack of communication, lack of interest in people, social anxiety, low self esteem. Actually no self esteem at all. I decided to take the persoality test and the result was that I am INTJ. The guy was right. I started to know more ...