TCaireneahmed

 You are here with me! Don't worry they won't find you.  The presence of epinephrine in your body is almost happening every day!   

I want to have peaceful life with everyone - starting from you to my child to parents and family and even the strangers on the bus.  Peaceful I mean I want that people love to see my face. I want them to desire meeting me and even ask for it .. I want them to remember their time with me!  I am drained and worn down by the idea that I could only and did only provide the opposite! This is not what I wanted to do! How I wish my life to be isn't what I'm doing now! I'm dying here between these two ideas! One; Am I either a crybaby, a loser boy or two am I right! Is it true that by missing what you want to do and giving up on your own personal pleasure you are becoming a tough guy or like a macho male? What regular type life a regular fella might want? What is the volume of actually doing your action item list compared to taking part of the action item list of others?! They once said - we don't get everything we want!  Thinking too much results in pain and uncomfortableness....